Hello friends!! Can you believe we’re more than a week into the new year? It’s weird lol
Anyways, I should start by saying this: I’ve been wanting to delve into this topic for a while, and each time I’m about to write, I have a different perspective from which to take it from, but it’s time to write anyways…
The last several months, I have been worrying and worrying over one thing: friendships.
I don’t know why, but the start of senior year came with the realization that after this year, I may not see these people ever again, and to be quite frank, that scares the hell out of me. We’ve spent four years building up friendships, and for what? For all of them to disappear after high school?? Uhhh, no thank you. I mean, yes, not all friendships last, and some will of course, I’m aware of both of those factors, but it still troubles me that I won’t have the relationships that I do anymore come this time next year. To be honest, I think this is all rooted in the fact that when I was in 5th grade, someone told me that the friendships I have in high school, won’t last at all – as in, every one of them will disappear. Back at the time, I didn’t think much of it; I was still pretty young, and had a “we’ll cross that bridge when we get there” mentality. But here I am, crossing that bridge….
Here’s what I’ve learned, especially within the last few months:
– Everybody is different, and every friendship that comes with it is different. They’re like llamas in that way – random. Llamas are the most random animal I can think of, and friendships are just that random. You never know what could happen.
– There are going to be friendships that do not last. It’s inevitable. I know for sure that many of the people I am friends with currently that we will lose touch. And I’ve come to be okay with that. Because:
– There are friendships that will in fact last. Everybody is different. I have a friend that I have not seen or spoken to in a very long while, yet when we do talk, it’s as if she’s never left. She is truly a gem of a friend and I know that no matter where we end up, we’re going to remain friends. I also have a friend where our entire friendship is built on honesty. She’s the first person I turn to, and I can tell her about anything and everything, even if she’s the one bothering me, and I know that she’ll be there to talk me through it. She just gets me, its strange lol but she’s my best friend and that’s a friendship that will last because I’m not so sure what I’d do without her haha.
– Its about the quality not the quantity of the friendships.
SO, if you’re like me, and you worry about everything too, I’m here to share that it’s all going to work out in the end, even if you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel just quite yet. Friendships will last, they’re just going to take a little more effort.
Have a good night everyone!
P.S. Yes this was weird. Yes I’m probably the only person that thinks about these things, but its my blog and I can post whatever I want 🙂